Friend.

Change is not the only thing constant. What is constant then? I fail to express my thoughts using the right lexicon or array of words. Why? Change? I guess it's the monotonous routine of life. Some days words come so naturally like the gentle waves kissing your toes. Somedays I have to desperately search for the right words like taking a step closer to allow my feet to feel the embracing waves. Writing is a therapy. It heals you within. What is there in me to heal? We all have it common. But, healing can be so difficult at times. Emotions can run wild or tamed. I like it tamed. Good for the mind.Grin.Heart as well. Anyway, where was I? Nowhere!Words, semantics, emotions and constancy. I don't have any particular theme or idea to harp upon. I blame monotony for this, the ever-expanding void.
I miss my friend. I miss our conversations. She was my first friend . What changed so much that we speak only in terms of hi and hello.Maturity.With maturity words fall short. Long calls cut short. Time is limited. Emotions change. We miss less. The human voice is magical. Words with emotions.Words filled with sadness, excitement, endearment, or disgust.Ennui.She was my "bestest" friend. There's no such word as "bestest".Even she isn't any more. The change of tense brings tension in relations.Was.Is.Past .Present.I do miss our conversations. I miss the shared laughter. The dollhouse games.Make-belief friendship. The forever is gone. The gone gets going. So who fills the gap? The Void. I still miss my friend. Trapped in a circle. Bad thing.

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